Dearest Blog, This week has been a good week 'Pregnant with......emotion.' if you will( I hope you all picked up on the movie quote, if not please refer yourself to Knocked Up.)
I have learned many things this week about myself and the individuals I choose to surround myself with. Let me tell you they are good people! I have learned that I have people in my life that drop everything to help you out, even if it is an inconvenience to them. (After all is this not the type of people you want in your life?)
I have learned that I still am deeply and now more than ever still in love with Red Vines! (Thank you Nathaniel for finding and bringing them home!!)
I have learned not to be too sensitive, sometimes people need to vent and that is OK, don't get your feelings hurt we all say things that we don't mean and our intention is not to hurt people and we don't actually mean that way. I practice this with my spouse frequently. Boo :(
Honesty is always the best policy....unless the truth involves a pregnant women, food or clothing, then the response is ALWAYS 'your so tiny, your like all baby!'
I have learned maybe gardening is not my 'thing' as I think I have already killed two flowers, but I will continue to water them as if they may miraculously re-gain life. I am certain however, that by months end I will find something I am good at.
I have learned that the Army still is a mess and no one seems to know what in the world is happening. They still do things that make no sense, and no matter how 'Family oriented' the Army commercials say they are, they in all actuality are not. Army Strong!!!
I have learned the best medicine to a crappy day is kisses from your babies!
I have learned that AAFES sucks as they have 'acidentally' cancelled the order for our couch and our bed that we have been waiting for for over two months. They now, amazingly are both no longer available for order.
I have learned (kind of) not to take my anger out on my spouse, he is not actually the reason why I am angry. But then who do I take it out on???? Lesson still in progress....
Dearest Blog, Last night, with Nathan's arrival from field time closin in, I have been thinking about all the things that I have missed about him. I have missed the silly banter between us in the kitchen, the laughing, and the goodnight kisses. I miss having someone else tuck the babies into bed and I hate the fact that Tanner has now associated a cell phone ring with daddy. Someone to keep the other side of the bed warm and a cuddle partner during movies. Such is the life of a House Hold 6 and that is the life I have chosen....this by no means does this mean that I have to be happy about it.
This being said when you have a spouse that is gone for long amounts of time every so often you do as the militay refers to as 'adapt and overcome.' These last weeks have been filled with me gettting on with life without my husband. As bad as this sounds all you military spouses know exactly what I am talking about. Your husband leaves you over eat for a few days then you pick up and learn to live life without them. This is the cycle...and with deployment realitivly around the corner this was good training.
But what about all the things that will change when he comes home? Can someone please tell me why it is easier to keep the house clean when he is gone? As I was laying in bed lat night I was thinking about the trail I will have to attend to upon the arrival of my husband. The gear will land in the hallway, the blouse on the back of the dining room chair, the boots and socks in the living room. He will then need a shower. Pants on the bedroom floor and underwear on the bathroom floor, and lastly towel hung on the door. I will clean up after him because he just got home, with promises of, "I'll clean it in the morning," and "I'll get it later" flying by my ears i the breeze. Ahhhhhhh, it has taken me weeks to get the house to this point and in 10 flat it is back to where it was.
The bottom line you ask?? I am an Army wife, I love my babies and my husband. I WILL make one of his favorite meals tonight for dinner, I WILL make sure he has fresh sheets on his bed, and I WILL throw on a little extra lipgloss on before picking him up. I missed my husband...and his dirty socks on my livingroom floor!!!
Well all this is my first post. I thought that this may be a good way for me to keep my family ad friends updated on our crazy life over here in Germany. I do have a bad feeling that this will just end up being free therapy to me. But I have never passed up free so....
Well in order to begin my blogging festivities I thought I should explain my title. I think that since I have been in the military I have led two lives, my military life and my civilian life. It is difficult at times to balance both sides of me, but I will be a work in progress till the day I die. As time marches on I think that I become better and more well rounded, but I will say it a hell of a ride on the lifelong journey to self discovery! On a lighter note I shall now explain the meaning behind Household 6. Non military individuals and maybe some new military spouses don't know what the term Household 6 means. In the military world the number 6 belongs to commander. So when a Soldier Member (SM) refers to his Household 6 he is referring to his spouse, his home commander...that would be me!
It has been a very busy past few weeks for me. Last few weeks of school and make up finals. In the first week of Nathan being gone I had three finals and a final project. T-ball practice and games, studying for my next final, getting ready for my drill weekend. At times I wanted to choke out my husband, sometimes my children, and on the rare occasion myself. SO....in my few moments of reflection I have found that I deal best under pressure. Why, I have no idea, but I have concluded I need therapy. Insert honest chuckle here, (you know the laugh that you give to make an uncomfortable situation more comfortable because an awkward truth has been spoken.)
Well since I am going to re class (Get a new Army MOS(MOS-Military Job)) in July I do not have time to complete summer term before I leave, so I have a month and a half off. I'm not really sure what to do with myself so I am gathering some potential hobbies. This is.....
Week 1 This week is my first week with nothing to do so I have a list of things I may or may not be any good at....
Gardening- I have started my garden, fertilized, pruned, and watered. Maybe something will grow. Antiquing- This is something I have always wanted to do. In my plan I will find old items and paint them. Simple enough. This will take some imagination and effort, maybe I can make this work. Cake -Making this is a hobby I must enter with caution, one can gain much weight with such a hobby. This will be closely followed by hobby 4. Mass Exercises- This would take time and hopefully turn me into a lean machine. I think that this may however be too much work and I think this is a hobby I will not be into. Reading- This is always a good fall back plan. I cannot possibly be bad at it...but how many hours a day can one really read? So this being said I will perhaps find something new to take place of school. please pray that I am not bad at all these things...I cannot see myself reading for 8 hours a day!!
So to the one person that may read this I will get back to you once I try some new hobbies...
